Welcome to ambivalence avenue
A ghost town home to few
Where the truth is hard to chew
And the ocean stays forever blue
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I've been weeding out the weeds
Distinguishing greed from wants and needs
I've almost run short of care
Though I say i'm self-aware
Despite appearing sweet outside
There are cruelties i can't confide
In anyone, lest they turn an eye
or let themselves drift to the sky
Unreachable, I am, in this state
Of mind - succumbed to my fate
Oh how I hate the way my vessels show
How my thoughts constrict but also flow
I taste bitter / hear my tongue
Behind the careless melodies sung
I'm as heartless as a donor
As fucking low as a stoner
I'm everything i don't want to be
But i am, simply
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and these convictions lie inside of me
I'm a flower in a grave
A fucking firework in a cave
You see, I'm bursting at the seams
But nothing's ever as it seems
It's too good to be true, they say
I'd come to find that out one day
When i learnt i could never run
From the solstice / of the sun
The light showering me in energy
Between the loose ends of tragedy
Tell me why there's still darkness
Even while my eyes stay open
My sockets sink into
Themselves / it is begging
For sleep in this godforsaken notion
I'm sick, ink-stained /
Worse off, all on my own
It's a lie I tell myself,
"I'm never alone"
- Haley
- Haley
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