5.11.2016

Is this immersion a distraction?
This life is only a fraction
of the one we could be living, I’ll say.

we could be a world that’s more giving - less taking away.
Why do something for another, why be selfless, why bother
if you’ll never see them in this life, anyway?

Yet why do we halt at these excuses, deem ourselves as pure useless, when we could be 
making a difference with a simple ‘You okay?'

I find our purpose unclear if we are to function so mechanically, with each day.
We trek lonely streets, plug our ears with white noise, to try to eliminate our fears.
Fears that we claim could be danger, as we come across a harmless stranger,
who has their own story and a name.

Are we so far removed, from those dastardly things we call robots?
The real fear lies within the shots fired, at angels with clipped wings.
Someone who is doing their best, but sadly, contests as a threat to our private orbit
- our exclusive heaven an elite in which we place ourselves in, as we deem fit.

In these years it’s been proved, to me:
humanity’s beginning to lose, what it means to be human
- all our lives, we’ve been led astray.

5.01.2016

ambivalence avenue

Welcome to ambivalence avenue
A ghost town home to few

Where the truth is hard to chew
And the ocean stays forever blue

               ***

I've been weeding out the weeds
Distinguishing greed from wants and needs

I've almost run short of care
Though I say i'm self-aware

Despite appearing sweet outside
There are cruelties i can't confide

In anyone, lest they turn an eye
or let themselves drift to the sky

Unreachable, I am, in this state
Of mind - succumbed to my fate

Oh how I hate the way my vessels show
How my thoughts constrict but also flow

I taste bitter / hear my tongue
Behind the careless melodies sung

I'm as heartless as a donor 
As fucking low as a stoner

I'm everything i don't want to be
But i am, simply

                            ***

Humanity surprises me
and these convictions lie inside of me

I'm a flower in a grave
A fucking firework in a cave

You see, I'm bursting at the seams
But nothing's ever as it seems

It's too good to be true, they say
I'd come to find that out one day

When i learnt i could never run
From the solstice / of the sun

The light showering me in energy
Between the loose ends of tragedy

Tell me why there's still darkness
Even while my eyes stay open

My sockets sink into
Themselves / it is begging
For sleep in this godforsaken notion

I'm sick, ink-stained /
Worse off, all on my own

It's a lie I tell myself,
"I'm never alone"

- Haley

11.06.2015

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Lonely bony lowly soul
Trying to make my body whole
Every morning starts with cold
Lonely bony lowly soul

- Annie